Out of the Darkness
So much has changed since I last wrote here that it's simply not worth covering. My social media is open for public consumption, so if you want to know about the basics of my life go check it out there.
Today I begin life as a single father amongst the living. For years I have been waging my battles on the edges of the rest of you - as you wake and just before you sleep. Sometimes my job seems silly, and sometimes I remember how much better thousands of people have slept because of my efforts. I look to my son and am overjoyed at the depth of our relationship. Personally and professionally I have spent my time and soul pouring myself into others and awaiting a return on that investment.
This week marks my first chance at realizing that return. If timing is everything, now is the time. I have accepted the past which I can not change and am ready to embrace exactly where I am at this moment.
Wednesday afternoon I will get to realize a goal I've been working towards for 16 months when I pick my son up from daycare at 5:30 and we commute home with the rest of the city. From there on out he and I will be learning a new life together, one step at a time.
Pick a goal, reach a goal. Maintain Integrity. Let the details of life sort themselves out.
For far too long I have had that backwards. Trying to dictate the details of exactly how each step of life should occur has wasted my efforts towards the big pictures that I have envisioned. My best work comes when confronted with an immediate and immutable challenge or crisis. Now is the time to play to my strengths, to confidently lead a group out of a chaotic period and into a new culture.
I can think of no better way to embrace the blank slate my life has become. I have a responsibility to celebrate this success by grasping this opportunity regardless of how I got here. It's time.
No Highs, No Lows.
posted by Nate C @ 6:20 AM
0 comments
